Tarot and future

I went to a tarot reading on the Old Market a few nights ago. 

She was an older woman, on whom I asked a lot of questions first, about tarot cards and her life, how long she had been doing this, any prejudices on Nebraska’s heavily christian region. After the reading, she was interested on Finland, on my trip to the States and how I saw the American life, from European perspective. I chatted with her a good solid hour.

She asked what I wanted to ask the cards.

“If I come back to America, will I be happy here?”

She drew three cards, one positive and two negative. 

She said that the positive one was a powerful card.. and when compared to the two opposing cards..

Yes, I would definitely be happy in America, but it would be through great personal sacrifice, leaving precious people and life in Finland behind. And on the hardships, I would have to have a clear vision, a true goal, or a true love or companion, to make it.. so my return should be made for a right reason.

She said.. “Maybe you will find your love while visiting here, or from Finland, -who knows-, who will support you and who you will support and thus have a good and happy life with someone, even if that life will not always be only of happiness and laughs. But that’s life, in my opinion, and in the end, you will be happy, at least the cards say that.” 

I laughed, dryly. Oh the irony.

Will my trip cast a too deep shadow to my future? Will obstacles prove to be too great? Fate? For as long as I will have some way to alter the outcome, I will battle.  I’ll never just submit.

Come what may, I’ll be there to greet the challenges.. with a smile and some stupid joke about it.

Were the answers the cards foretold already something I knew, deep inside?